At the beginning of July, as we approached the 3 year anniversary of your death, a song from a long time ago kept running through my mind.  It was a song that I listened to as a teenager when I loved country music. 

The words just kept coming back… each line of it, I felt.  Now as an adult, I feel like I understand a little more deeply what those songs are really about. “I told you I’d leave a light on, in case you ever wanted to come back home”  

I remember that last night you were with us and left.  I left the bedroom light on all night as I waited.  I couldn’t turn it off.  I wanted you to know I was waiting for you.  “I took your every word to heart, cause I can’t stand us being apart.”

I remember all the things we planned and promised each other… I did take your every word to heart.  I remember it all and it hurts to let it all go, I wish we didn’t have to be apart.  “And just to show how much I really miss ya…

Every light in the house is on, the backyard’s bright as the crack of dawn, the front walk looks like runway lights… Runway lights.  I remember when you flew airplanes and would talk about the runway lights guiding you back as you landed…

I thought could you just fly back?  Land in the front yard with the lights guiding you home?  “Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone… every light in the house is on.” I know you won’t get tired of being gone, but just in case you did, I would light up the house so you’d know where to find us.  

The front walk, lit up like a runway and I dream that you’d be tired of being gone and just fly back to us.  You’d find our new house and see the runway lights guiding you home.  I’d wait up for you and watch you land, just like I did before, but this time it would be in a place you’ve never been and I’ve made my home.  

I’d show you all the things I’ve done to try to make this house a home without you.  You’d see the excitement in my eyes as I showed you everything and how much I love it al.  You’d be so proud of me and you’d smile that smile you smile when you see my smile.  

We’d pick up where we left off, that last time you took off, but didn’t come home, you would finally come home.  I wouldn't have to date any more and the kids would love all over you.  You’d wrestle them all at once because not one of them would be able to stand being away from you for even one moment longer.

We’d smother you with love and hugs and kisses.  After we exhausted ourselves with excitement and fell over on each other in a heap of love and laughs and hugs; we’d all sit and listen to the stories you’d tell of the adventures you had while you were away.  

That’s the daydream I got caught up in when I heard that song… So I bought lighting to put up all around the house, I just wanted to feel like I could show you how much I’m tired of you being gone.  

So now the front yard walkway is lined with lights, it looks a little like a runway.  In my day dream, it is, and the backyard is lit up too to let you know we’re here.  I keep them on all night, just hoping you’d get tired of being gone and so you know that I still keep a light on for you.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72AVXpeo_ZI

Every Light in the House Song by Trace Adkins

Lyrics

I told you I'd leave a light on

In case you ever wanted to come back home

You smiled and said you appreciate the gesture

I took your every word to heart

'Cause I can't stand us being apart

And just to show how much I really miss ya

Every light in the house is on

The backyard's bright as the crack of dawn

The front walk looks like runway lights

It's kinda like noon in the dead of night

Every light in the house is on

Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone

Every light in the house is on

If I should ever start forgetting

I'll turn the lights off one by one

So you can see that I agree it's over

But until then I want you to know

If you look south, you'll see a glow

That's me waiting at home each night to hold ya

Every light in the house is on

The backyard's bright as the crack of dawn

The front walk looks like runway lights

It's kinda like noon in the dead of night

Every light in the house is on

Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone

Oh every light in the house is on

The backyard's bright as the crack of dawn

The front walk looks like runway lights

It's kinda like noon in the dead of night

Every light in the house is on

Just in case you ever do get tired of being gone

Every light in the house is on