It never stops hurting and often feels like hope is a thing of the past. Loss creates the space to learn more than you would have without the deep hole of what feels like emptiness. The emptiness is constant.

Within that emptiness though comes increased capacity. That capacity is growing a space greater than anything you could have known was possible without it. There is a deep and gaping whole in your soul.

Within the deep gaping hole of darkness that comes when you loose control of what you thought was true in your life, comes a journey where you learn how to fill that darkness in ways you had never even imagined existed.

I wouldn’t wish that darkness on anyone. Still, it gives me the strength and capacity to love more, feel more, and know more than is possible without it. It increases my capacity to be more than I was before it arrived.

Now, I can’t imagine living without this deep wisdom growing from that hole. Wisdom that only comes with learning to fill the darkness of loss and how it creates more capacity to feel more deeply than is possible without it.

And that… that is something I wish everyone could come to know, but one cannot without the heavy price one must pay to become more than is possible without it.