Living is a whole new adventure when you suddenly find yourself alone, widowed and the mother of four young boys a lot like their Dad.
Connecting During Grief
Thanks for being part of this. I intend to bring more content, thoughts and inspiration. My objective is to show what I have learned and gone through without my husband because mine is not a common experience.
I Love You
I’m standing in my bathroom, brushing my teeth. I think I’m alone and I feel alone. The kind of alone that feels lonely. I look toward the doorway and this little tiny human has appeared, startling me just a bit because he was so quiet.
Lonely, But Not Alone
Loneliness doesn’t come from just being alone. You can be surrounded by people and feel lonely. You can be alone and not feel lonely at all. So far, I’ve kept myself as far as possible from feeling lonely. I have 4 kids, so I’m always surrounded, that helps a lot. I’ve taken on project after project, most out of necessity, but nonetheless willingly because they keep my busy. With my mind occupied my heart doesn’t have much space to feel, or heal for that matter.
2nd Dead Anniversary
Tomorrow is my second wedding anniversary without Grant. What does that make tomorrow for me? The 2nd dead Anniversary? The first one was too soon, only 2 months after he died. I was in a complete haze of life still. We had planned to go to Hawaii that year during our anniversary. Hawaii is where we got married. We’d already paid for our rental house, so I went anyway with my boys.
