Living is a whole new adventure when you suddenly find yourself alone, widowed and the mother of four young boys a lot like their Dad.
Creating Space
If I come outside whether on my veranda or out on the kitchen porch and my kids don’t know, a lot of times I can have just a few minutes by myself.
Enough As You Are
There’s so many parenting fails I have. Probably the best one is when I was trying to be a Dad because my kids Dad died.
Allowed Me To Live
Our business, the channel on Youtube: TKOR or The King of Random has allowed me to be a mom to my kids.
Loss Creates Space
It never stops hurting and often feels like hope is a thing of the past.
Family Portraits
Our last family photoshoot with dad was right after Jayce was born. That’s more than 6 years ago.
Creating the Moments
Regardless of the challenges, I ask myself and my children sometimes, how we can make the best of this? How can I utilize the space and the energy to answer the needs that I and they have?
Being Alive
After going through the loss of my husband, the thing that I have connected to the most, is that feeling of what it feels like to be alive. When I get too far from that, I get more unalive though I’m alive.
Connecting During Grief
Thanks for being part of this. I intend to bring more content, thoughts and inspiration. My objective is to show what I have learned and gone through without my husband because mine is not a common experience.
Parenting…
Parenting, its’ so easy, am I right?! Nope. Just hangin’ on by a thread most of the time. Yet, one moment at a time, we figure it out. I usually don’t feel like I know what I’m doing, but asking questions and being present gets us through it.
I Love To Love What I Love
I remember one of the funniest things I ever said on a date with Grant. I say funny as if I am actually funny or something, but my husband got a kick out of this one. We were talking about things that we love.
Since My Husband Died
Being alone has shown me how to find who I am without my husband. The journey of losing the person that you love most never ends. It never stops hurting. It often feels like hope is a thing of the past.
Watching Videos
It’s amazing how watching videos of our lives changes so much after loss. How could I have known the bigger meaning of the question “Honey, where are you?” when I was rhetorically asking Grant at the airport.
Grief Is A Powerful Detector
Grief is a powerful detector of what you value. When tragedy occurs, the aftermath of grief causes everything else you thought was once important to fall away, sometimes instantaneously.
Protected By A Partner
Of what women give to men, what ways do you men feel that in your relationships? Do you feel that protection in your relationships? In what ways do women provide a protective space for their men?
Protected With a Partner
Women… how do you feel protected by the masculine in your life? Men, how do you feel the protection of the feminine in your life?
Cold Plunge Anyone?!
I noticed that there aren’t as many people doing cold plunges on social media. Is that because they don’t work or that they just aren’t trendy anymore?
Heaven Calling
What should you do when you think heaven is calling? I mean like literally. What would you say if you could talk to your dead loved one, one more time?
I Didn’t Choose Out
My husband was the kind of unique that was gentle hearted with a twinkle of funness. I miss that with all my heart. I expect to think as highly about my next person and whatever makes him unique.
