Living is a whole new adventure when you suddenly find yourself alone, widowed and the mother of four young boys a lot like their Dad.

Fear
Janae Janae Thompson Janae Janae Thompson

Fear

Fear. It’s one of those things that you can’t hide from. It’s a natural human reaction. Emotions in general are a natural human reaction and for that matter also not really under our control either. What we choose after we feel an emotion is what really counts.

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How to Help a Person in Grief Part l
Janae Janae Thompson Janae Janae Thompson

How to Help a Person in Grief Part l

A person in grief usually doesn’t know what they need or want. When someone asked, what can I do? I usually didn’t know. I can’t tell you how many times someone said, ‘I’ve been thinking about you.

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This Will Kill You
Janae Janae Thompson Janae Janae Thompson

This Will Kill You

Inside of me, there were words, coming from the ache in my stomach. My stomach really hurt. It was a real physical stomach ache, but I didn’t know why it hurt so badly. I get them every once in a while, but this time is was different.

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Goodbyes
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Goodbyes

Each morning when I drop this boy off for preschool, we have a little dance we go through. It’s all him of course. It’s all love… is what it really is. I say good-bye and blow him a kiss. I love you, I say. He blows me a kiss, then another and another.

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Birthdays
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Birthdays

My baby turned 5 yesterday. It’s hard for me to say “our” baby now. I don’t know an “our” anymore. He’s now had 3 birthdays without his dad. He got 2 birthdays with him, which was it. This photo was his last birthday with his dad. He won’t remember a birthday with him.

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Crumpled In Heaven’s Hand
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Crumpled In Heaven’s Hand

It puzzles me as to why people think because I seem to look like I’m fine that I am indeed fine. When I converse with people, we talk about the weather, kids, the craziness of life with Covid and everything else. As if everything is normal and fine. I’m not fine.

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