Living is a whole new adventure when you suddenly find yourself alone, widowed and the mother of four young boys a lot like their Dad.
Next Podcast Please
As I have mentioned before, a lot is currently being created right now in my life. I’m getting more out there, being me. I feel more like mysef than ever before. This is one of the earlier podcasts I’ve been part of and yet, it’s an important one.
Fear Is Human
Fear is one of the most significant obstacles in life. It can hold us back from achieving goals, taking appropriate risks, and pursuing our dreams. When we learn to face our fears and overcome them, that ability opens up a whole new world of possibilities.
This Week
This week I am at a conference and I have been working on a series of blogs about Love. I just didn’t feel like I have fleshed out the depth and breadth of what I wanted to say when it was time to make the post live, so instead of giving you something surfacey and not worth your time; I decided to just tell you straight up.
Mexico With My Kids
Can I do this? I keep asking myself this question. Over and over, about everything I do or want to do in life since becoming a single parent of 4. I wanted to take my kids on a trip. Can I do this? No, I can’t, but I will.
How I Do It
I dunno how you do it. I get that all the time. When someone finds out my husband died; I’m raising 4 boys, I’m keeping up with a business, a household and about a million other little things that go along with it. That's what I hear a lot.
The B.S. of Surrender-Grieving Part V
Surrender? Oh what bullshit! A lovely idea, surrender and things just seem to magically fall into peace, and you’ll feel better. It’s not that simple.
Sorry Doesn’t Help-Grief Part IV
It's almost always the first thing people say when I tell them I lost my husband. “I’m so sorry for your loss.” “Thank you" I say and try to move on because I don’t want to wallow in the sorry.
Ask Different Questions-Grief Part III
When people ask me, “How are you doing?” the automatic response is “good, fine” etc. After my husband died when I heard that question it was a different answer in my mind.
Keep Coming Back-Grief Part II
The people who kept coming back made all the difference. The ones who didn’t give up on me. When you keep coming around; even though the grieving person isn’t the most fun company or doesn’t seem to appreciate your efforts or is just plain negative to be around; don’t let it get you down.
How to Help a Person in Grief Part l
A person in grief usually doesn’t know what they need or want. When someone asked, what can I do? I usually didn’t know. I can’t tell you how many times someone said, ‘I’ve been thinking about you.
How to Help a Person in Grief
It is different for everyone. No matter what the situation; when grief is present, the human emotion of suffering loss, it is deep and unexplainable. It is a feeling that can only be shared by those who have lost. Everyone experiences grief on some level and as life goes, it gets deeper and deeper.
Training Up a Child Part III
As I trained the new grapevines, I could almost hear, ‘just remember Janae, remember where you came from. Remember this blood, our family, you, me; who we are, and how I am with you.’
Training Up a Child Part II
As I worked with the grape vines and trained them up to the direction I want to guide them; I love this vine even more. That vision I see for them of a lush porch garden, becomes what I see instead of now.
Training Up a Child Part 1
Growth is Magical! Ok, maybe not magical, but it always feels miraculous. I still bask in wonder as I witness the newness of life. Everytime. When my babies were born, my chicks hatched, my plants and flowers sprouted and bloomed…
Badass Mom
I am a Badass Mom. Ya know why? I caught this rattlesnake!! And I did it with a pole and my bare hands. Riley was there with the bucket to put over top, so I gotta give him some credit too. It was actually Riley who helped the most.
Three Years Happened
Tonight I realized something. As I write, it’s the day that marks 3 years since Grant died, July 2019. On this day, I have just come back from my daily walk in a neighborhood that still feels foreign to me, even though I’ve lived here 2 years . It was the first thing I did, find a walking path that I could make mine.
